Journey continues

As this journey continues I have learned not to push myself too hard. I went grocery shopping earlier this week.  Sounds like a simple task.  It ended up feeling like I climbed Mount Everest,  Took 2 days to recover.

My spirits are good.  I feel happy, positive.

My body is doing weird things.  I am nauseous most of the time and can't face solid food except for my friend Dan's home made gluten free cheese bread.  Otherwise I am having Ensure and shakes made in the Bullet blender.  As someone whose vice in life has been food, not wanting to eat is an unusual experience.

My body likes to nap at unusual times.  Almost fell asleep in the uber taxi after treatment.

My mouth has a metallic taste so I also brush my teeth a lot.  My dentist would be proud.

I find that having access to cable T.V. Here has not improved my opinion of it.  I do have to say that the Property brothers are cute, so they are nice to watch.

I am kinda like my 86 year old Dad where I can all of a sudden nod off in front of the tv without any warning.  I am a crazy party girl now.

The radiation treatments are fine.  They don't hurt or anything.  Just the side effect of exhaustion.  Just like when you have a new born baby.

My hands shake as I type so please excuse any errors.

I don't find that I am too bored.  Lots and of reflection  time .  I fall asleep to my nightly meditation each night.

I am in the regent park area, every driver I have had has told me not to go out at night.  The streets are actually pretty quiet with little traffic noise in the evenings,

My thigh hurts.  Pain meds are good.

I have some emotional moments but overall I am keeping it together.  The emotion is either triggered by pain or worrying about my kids.  I think every Mom in this situation worries about her kids.  So I have a good cry now and again.  As the saying goes....better out than in.

I have many people checking in on me through Facebook and texting and email.  It is great to get so much support.  

I love being here in the condo as it gives me my own quiet retreat and reflective place where I don't have to worry about a schedule beyond my Radiation appointments.

I have had visitors too which is nice.  Everybody has been good with me having to lye down durning visits.

It's all good