Roller Coaster Ride

This is a roller coaster ride for sure.  One moment I am up, positive, things are going to be okay.

I am watching positive, upbeat Ted Talks.

Life is good

Then I decide to check the Sarcoma unit information at Mount Sinai to see what I should prep for.----- Really BAD idea.

I think I need to go back to going with the flow.

Anxiety attack.... you betcha

FEAR of this not going well .... yep went there too

So I turned off all the images on the screens and stopped.

I went and pulled out one of my Angle Cards.  I look at the picture, a happy women with her legs dangling in the water, health and good.  I decide that I am that woman.

I have the confidence in God that everything is going to be all right..... as long as I stay off the internet!!

Not all sunshine and roses.... but still, I am learning how to process information differently and reframe it.

Still sucks

But that's okay too.

In the end I will have an adventure... wherever it takes me